My wife and I started a publishing company in August 2010. I wrote about this in a blog last fall called New Career. We are both convinced that it was God’s will for us to start Bound by Faith Publishers. We published Parenting Moment by Moment in October 2010 and we released Night of the Cossack April 2011.
Even though the sales of both books have been good, the sales haven’t been enough to support us. So I went to work at a local bank as a mortgage loan officer in May (I have 25 years of experience as a loan officer). I honestly don’t understand why God didn’t bless our business enough to support itself. But I’ve come to realize that the beautiful part about it is that I don’t have to understand it. I was reading Job recently and thankfully I haven’t experienced anything (even a fraction) as horrific as Job went through (Job 1:13-22; 2:7-8), I still questioned God…a lot.
But I am at peace with my situation now – I am content (Philippians 4:11). I don’t understand God’s ways and I don’t have to. I just need to be obedient and follow God. My wife and I are very sure that we did what God wanted us to do and my prayer is that we continue to follow Him, no matter how hard it is. I want to follow God fully and completely, even when following God is hard.
A side benefit to all of this is that after being out of the home mortgage industry for nine months, I am now rejuvenated and raring to go. Some of my former customers have found out where I am now working at and they are applying for loans to either refinance their current home or purchase a new one.
I wrote this to encourage you if you are going through something right now that you don’t understand (and you are a believer); please keep praying to God that you are doing what He wants you to do and trust that God knows what is best for you. Keep praising God, thanking God and believing in Him.
Sometimes following God is hard, but I wouldn’t want it any other way. Remember, God is more interested in the person you are going to be for eternity than your immediate, temporal comfort. Keep following God because even when it is hard to follow Him, it is still much easier than trying to make it through life without Him.